Embracing the Last 6 Weeks of 2020…

I am a bit baffled to write that we’re nearing the end of 2020, but it’s true! 

How are you feeling about it? 

I’m somewhere in the middle of relief and mild panic. There’s a part of me who wishes I had ‘achieved more’, and there’s a part of me who is pretty damn proud of how I handled all the change that unexpectedly happened this year. 

I guess you can’t satisfy both your ego and your soul at the same time. Upon further reflection, I also don’t think that should be the goal. To truly close this year in a mindful and connected way, we need to ask ourselves to arrive in the present moment. Of course, look ahead and set intentions and goals for 2021, and of course, look back and learn from all the lessons 2020 has brought you (and celebrate your successes as well). But perhaps most important, is to arrive in the now and ask ourselves: how am I currently feeling? What is contributing to that? Do I want to shift, change, improve anything, and can I do that right now?

If this year has shown us just one thing, it is that we can plan and control as much as we like, but there are bigger things at play here. Whether that is the government ushering us back into lockdown or the Universe deciding that we need to take a different route (I know which one I prefer though ;)), there is only so much we can truly decide on our own. Even though that brings up a bit of unease with it too (after all, we are brought up seeing ourselves as ‘individuals’, little islands who partake in a ‘survival of the fittest’ game), I find a comfort in it. Surprisingly. 

For instance, no matter how much I’ve been struggling with my anxiety disorder this year, I have always had the reminder there’s is something else than just ‘me’ who’s there so support me, guide me and show me the way (well, speaking about the Universe specifically now, of course!). 

So during these last 6 weeks of the year, in which I feel like I’m being asked more than ever to go within and find a trust in myself and the Universe, I press pause and arrive in the now. I give myself a break from setting intentions for now and I also give myself a break of thinking about everything that ‘could’ve happened’ this year but never did. 

I arrive here. I root myself in the present. And I celebrate myself for all that I am right now. It’s enough. I am enough. And so are you. 

Let’s lean back into divine support and choose to trust the guidance that is flowing through all of us. In a world which is more shaky than ever, it feels oddly stabilising.